Karolina Keric

I have not posted anything for a few days.
I guess the last post was quite heavy and I needed a few days to think about it.

I am so greatful to you guys. For being so caring and understanding :)
It means alot to me. More than you can imagine.

I have been through a bad period lately. I've not told all of you what happened
over a month ago. I told some of you and you have all helped.
Some don't know the whole story.

I have decided to talk about it now. On here.

One Tuesday afternoon I was sat in work and tried to concentrate, but I could not.
I had not been sleeping properly for weeks. I lost concentration at work and I found myself
having troubles breathing at times. So bad that I had to leave the room and calm down.
People that usually made me laugh started to annoy me.
I was not enjoying being around my own boyfriend or my friends.
That Tuesday afternoon I just broke down. I went out of the office and called Ads.
He told me to go home. I stayed home for two days. Went to the doctor on the Friday and broke down infront of him. I could not stop crying. I did not even know why I was crying. I'm usually so strong and don't let things get to me.
The doctor diagnosed me with depression.. He told me to have 4 weeks off work, but I said "No! I can't have 4 weeks off work". Again thinking of all the people I would be letting down. And forgetting about me.
So I said 2 weeks would be enough. He gave me some anti depressants too..
I felt so lost and confused when I left the doctors and I called Ads..
He could not understand it.. How could his girlfriend be depressed?
He was not the only one though.
A friend said "But you seem so happy"..

I don't know what or how it happened. You never know with depression. It creeps up on you when you least expect it. I felt so sad and weak.

But now I have started to come back to normality.
I don't stress about things as much anymore.
I realised that I am more important than targets at work or friends with issues that I could not help with.

I usually put myself last. And that's something I've done all my life.

It's hard for me to think about me first.. But it is something I've started doing now.
I used to think that's selfish, but it's ok to be selfish sometimes.
Especially when it affects your health, then it is time to stop and think about what is right for you.

Some friends have been so supportive and understanding and I thank you all.
For being there when I needed someone to talk to, but also for not asking me how I was :)
And for understanding when I did not want to talk at all.

I'm not 100% recovered, but I know that everything will be alright in the end.

And I now know that there is nothing wrong with being depressed..
It is not something you can "snap out of".. No matter how much you wish you could.
Time is all I need. And understanding. 

 

Only about 8 weeks left till we go back to Sweden :)
Just bought the tickets and I am £320 pound poorer (haha),
but it will be worth it when I'm there again :D

We usually pay about £200 less for tickets, but I guess alot of people are going back
home for Christmas.

I can't wait to see my lil sister on Christmas Eve opening up all here Christmas presents :)
And have my dads lovely Christmas dinner. Yummy yum yum.

I wrote a blog post about my thoughts regarding Christmas last year.
You can read it here. 

I long to see snow in December. Real snow! :)


 
Old town in Stockholm. Can't wait to go to the Christmas market :)


And eat Lussebullar :) They are delicious.
I used to help my mum bake these. I don't like raisins, so I always pick them out.
Or ask my mum to make me some without them haha. I am very picky!

If you want to read about it go here.

How do you usually spend Christmas? Is it something you enjoy or dread (like myself)?

Sleeping is something we all love to do.
Even though I think we waste too much time of our lives sleeping.
But we have to do it nonetheless.

It's quite funny to know what positions people sleep in.
I sleep as the first picture shows. The foetus position. I have slept like that all my life.
I wish I could sleep on my back, but there is no chance I'd fall asleep if I'm on my back.
Weird?

And then we got the sleeping positions with someone next to you in the bed. 
I can't sleep if someone is too close to me or anything.
So again the position me and Ads end up sleeping in is G or H and sometimes C. 

How about you? What is your sleeping position?

Friends are always good to have.
Sometimes you drift apart and you don't see some of them as much as you may want to or used to.

It is important to keep contact with your friends. Even if your lives are very different at the moment.
Take time to see each other. Or call your friend for a chat. Catch up and have a laugh :)

Sometimes you think "Why should I call them?", because we think they should make an effort too.
But sometimes we are just too busy with work and other things in our lives that we actually forget to do it.

Last night a friend of mine that I used to work with in House of Fraser messaged me and asked if I was free for some drinks today :) And I said yes! I have not seen her for a while and it will be fun to see her again :D
We used to have such a laugh when we went out.

The collage is a few of the hundred pictures we took on various nights out :P
Princess Char is a true star ;) ♥

So if you know there is someone you miss and have not talked to for a while, call them,text or e-mail them
today ;) You will feel much better about it :)

It's been a while since I watched a good movie.

So we decided to watch Public enemies with Johnny Depp and Christian Bale was in it too.
I love movies based on a true story. And this one was very interesting :)
I recommend you to watch it.

It's about John Dillinger a notorious gangster in the 1930's :P

It is here!! :D
My new loveli.

(Click on pics to see them bigger)

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I got it delivered yesterday :) Sooo happy!
Got it shortened today. I'm wearing it tonight :P
I should really be getting ready haha.

I have a watch that I wear for every day use.
It is a Guess watch and it has been my favourite for a while now :)

Both are really me :D

I thought I'd show you guys what I did yesterday. Don't have time to make another post.
I really should be getting ready :X
I got my fringe cut. Could not stand it anymore. Takes forever to grow it.
Here is a pic I just took. No make up on hence the hand in the face haha :P



Good or bad? :/

Ok off I go!
Have a wonderful Saturday night loveli people :D

I have not had one of these for a while :P
Sorry guys, but I am a girl after all ;)

I really love these 3 dresses.
Would not mind having them hanging in my wardrobe.

They are from Lipsy.

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Well I wish it was Friday every day :D
I am quite hyper today. Feel all cheerful and full of energy!
Why? It is FRIDAY :D

This week has been quite long, and boring. Hate working lates.
Feels like all I do is work,work,work! (well kinda haha)

What am I doing this weekend?
Ooooh let me tell you!
Tonight I am watching some of my favourite shows :P
And having some lovely vino *yummy,yum yum*
Am I playing some TF2? Well of course I am ;)

Tomorrow I am cleaning the whole flat (grrrr) has to be done.
And then going shopping (food, nothing too interesting) and then I'm going Nandos!!
I ♥ Nandos. I could eat there every day. Honestly.

And then I'm going out for a few drinks! :D

What to wear? Do you guys want to help me with that?
Shall I go for:

A.   The purple one. It is one of my favourite dresses.

B.   The pink one. I just love this one :D

C.   Or the Tarzan & Jane one :P

What do you think?

I'm addicted to this game on my iPhone. Who to blame?
Daidai :P


I am quite competitive ;) and I don't like losing haha. Some of you may already know that.
This game is very tricky at times and it makes you think. Which is good :D

I always feel so proud when I finish a level haha. Silly me I know :X

 (click on pics to make them larger)


 



 I am stuck on this level. It is quite tricky.


If you got an iPhone have you played this game? If yes, do you like it or hate it? :D
Tell me :P

Till I go back to Sweden! ♥

I can't wait. I always have mixed emotions when I go back home :X

I have not been back home for X-mas since I moved here. I don't like X-mas myself..
It's true... I kinda dislike it! :X 
No I'm not weird.. :P

But it will be nice to spend it back home again.
It's very different from the way you celebrate it here in England.

Most of all I'm looking forward to eating Semla and drinking Julmust :X 
<----- Semla. Yes that is cream Chris P before you say: "You don't like cream!" haha.
I only like it on this cake :X and I don't eat all of the cream. It's whats inside the bun that is delicious!! :D
(I can see my diet going to hell when I go back hahaha)

 <----- Julmust. I did not like it too much when I was younger. But it reminds me of good times when I was younger and spent X-mas with my family and friends.

 I'm also looking forward to drinking Glögg :D (mulled wine)

For me at least :p
I have lost 4 kg's since I came back from Sweden.
Which is about 8.8 pounds (thank you Google haha)
And I am so proud of myself :D

It might not sound alot to some people, but for me it has been a struggle.

I have never been ultra slim. Well not since I was like 18-19 years old :P
I've been happy with my weight till a couple of months ago,
when I let myself gain quite a few kg's more than I've ever been.

I don't like to diet. And I definitely don't like to exercise. I'm too lazy.
I have periods when I go on the Wii or go out running, but they don't last long.

This time all I did was to cut down on snacking and drinking my favourite drink Coca Cola.
The latter was the hardest part. I let myself have diet coke every other day,
and an original one every 2-3 weeks :X (not easy).

I snack on Carrot sticks instead of chocolate :P haha. Yummy! And I eat soup! :D
It's not as hard as I thought it would be. Most of all I feel much better about my weight now.
I could lose a bit more and then I'd be completely satisfied with myself. But I am truly happy now :) 

 
This was me in December last year. And I was happy with my figure.
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And this was June last year. Would ♥ to look like that again.
Used to work in House of Fraser then so I was running around all day.
Now I'm stuck in an office :/

Regarding the questions I asked you guys :)
I got quite a few answers from you and I really appreciate it :D

Love getting to know you all more. It's great when you all participate in questions/answers etc.
Makes it so much more fun for me to write :D

I wanted to post all your answers in one post, but after recieving them all I realised it would be a bit too much.
It would not look good :/
Hope you don't mind that your answers are in the comments bit under the actual Questions post.

I appreciate your honesty :) Especially the answers about my blog. I will take it all in and try and continue writing about things that interest both me and you. I do write for myself, but mostly for others :)
I want to share my thoughts with others, but I also want to know about your thoughts.

Woot/Phil wrote : but it does make me feel sad/sorry for you when your unhappy, i can't help but think you'd like to write and tell someone all your troubles, and even though this is your blog, its still not somewhere you can pour them out as telling one person your telling all. So that makes me feel a bit sad when i read your woes, as i know there's alot more behind what your writing, you just can't put it all on paper.


You are right Phil.. It is my blog. And I do sometimes feel like I can't write everything I would want to.
There are things I want to scream out at times. But I can't.. I don't know who reads my blog. I know some of you :) And I don't mind sharing things with you guys. But some of the things I want to write I feel I should not :/

But mostly I don't want people to pity me or feel sorry for me when/if I would actually write everything I want. 


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You were very helpful on Friday with all the questions you asked me.
It was so much fun to answer them all :D

So I thought I should do the same for you ;)
I’d like to know more about you guys.

Decided to ask a few different ones, some to find out more about who you are, what you like etc.
I will probably use some of your questions too :P Hope that’s ok.

And then I will ask you what you think about my blogg etc.

Here are a few personal questions for you.

There is a twist to it. I will wait with "posting" your comments ;) I've made the comments hidden till I've gotten them all in and then I will make a post with all your comments. Hope that is cool with you? :D

1. How old are you?

2. Where do you live?

3. What do you do for living?

4. What is a perfect day off for you? What do you do? Where do you go? Who are you with?

5. What makes you happy? A person? Something material?

6. Do you have a goal set for yourself? If you do, what is it?

7. If you could have 1 super power, what would it be?

8. Are you scared of anything? If yes, what?

9. What was your favourite cartoon/TV programme when you were little?

10. If reincarnation is real and you come back as an animal, what animal would you be?

11. Do you have tattoos? Would you like to get one?

12. If you could resurrect any person from any point in history who would it be and why?

13. Lights on or lights off? :p

14. How many different countries have you been to in your life?

15. What was your best subject you were good at in school?

16. If you spent a day again as a child, what would you like to do that you feel you couldn't as an adult?

17. Is there anything about yourself that you would like to change? Personality, physical etc

18. If you had a chance to go back in time, (ANY time) when and where would you go?

19. Use any 3 words to describe yourself.

20. Tell me about a time when you did something silly :)

I will share a moment of silliness with you :)

Ok the rest of the questions will be about my blog or me.

Please be honest when you answer :) I want to know what you think.
I appreciate criticism! :)

21. Why do you read my blog? :)

22. What type of posts do you like the most/the least?


23. Is there anything you want to read about more/less?

24. How could I improve the blogg? Is there anything that it lacks? In design/quality etc.


25. Would you like a few video posts? Lol. And no don’t say anything rude!
If you would like it, what would you want me to say/do? Again. Nothing rude! Lol

I think it will have to do for this time :)

I do hope a lot of you will want to answer the questions.

You don’t have to answer every single one. You might find some of them boring, or you may not have an answer at all :) that’s ok! :) But please answer a few at least :D

Will make me so happy to get to know you all more!

I have decided to let you participate more on my blog :)
I think it's a lot of fun seeing you guys commenting on my posts/questions etc.
So when Spanky sent me this I wanted to post it straight away :D
He is my guest blogger of the week :)

I will do my own A-Z during the day. It is not as simple as it may sound :P But I like a challenge :)

Here is what Spanky wrote.

Some of you will know me as Mr Spanky (those of you who play tf2 on UKCS anyway) and The rest of you can call me Chris P :)

This is me in A to Z:

A - Arrogant - Not starting on a good one lol - but it's true. Particularly on moral issues I just have an absolute certainty that I am *right* - when people disagree with me on such things I tend not to argue though - things can get messy (and loud) when that happens haha.

B - Brick - Not quite sure if that counts (its a phrase my dad used to use) but I'm a very good listener and when people just need someone to talk to (or rant at) i find it very easy
 to let them.

C - Clever - well obviously ;)

D - Dominating - I honestly didn't think I was but several people have commented on this - particularly in conversation I can be quite overriding. Oh and of course I LOVE to be in other areas too. :p

E - Eccentric - Well yeah I am. I have a lot of attitudes and ideals that people find strange but I like myself this way so NEERRRR! :P I'm a bit of an odd ball - but i hope a loveable one.

F - Friendly - up to a point. If i know that whoever it is is NOT doing something with an ulterior motive, I like to be friendly to people.

G - Generous - Always have been and very proud of it. Although I HAVE had to learn just *who* it's good to be generous to and who will just take you for a ride.

H - Hard - I'm usually a very tolerant person. I think *because* of this though if someone pisses me off too much or does something wrong that I really cant understand i can be *very* hard - and I don't mind saying it to them either!

I - Interested - In people, things, places, ideas - everything really. I LOVE to learn things and learn new ways of thinking what people are thinking, what makes people tick etc.

J - Jealous - I try not to be but I am. I think it's ok in moderation (and certainly natural) to be jealous but taken to an extreme I think It'd be VERY unpleasant both for myself and the object of my jealousy.

K - Kareless (Cant actually think of one for K lol) I have the tendency to break and lose things quite frequently - I don't really know why. Maybe something to do that I tend to put little value in material things or MAYBE I'm just a cack-handed oaf hahaha

L - Loving - One of the things I like most about myself - I don't let people get close to me easily but when I do Its for good reasons - these days at any rate. And i like to show it when i really love someone by doing things they probably think are a bit nutso lol

M - Mischievous - not really THAT much but i like particularly to play with words and use innuendo to change the meanings of things.

N - Naive - I've lived a fairly sheltered life really - I'm familiar with most of the hardships and difficulties of life but havent really experienced many of them at full throttle. This is not to say I think I couldn't handle it - just I've never/rarely been there.

O - Open - Something I believe in very much - the only way to make REAL connections with people is to let them know who you REALLY are. Not pretending your something else or TRYING to be someone else to impress or fit in. The kind of friends that really matter are the ones that accept you for your flaws and faults as well as the good things. Everyone else can shove it - more or less ;-).

P - Persistent - When I think there's something out there that I really want or would be good for me I usually keep on trying until it either becomes actually impossible or a get it.

Q - Quiet - Sometimes I can be very quiet and it's not (most of the time) an indication that somethings wrong. Most times when  this happens is when I get thoughtful and I just kind of zone out.

R - Robust - I like to think that I'm fairly tough and have a strong will - I do for most things I think. Although some things (which are remaining nameless hahaha) I have a weakness for.

S - Stubborn - oooooh yes lol - particularly when I think I'm onto something good - usually people telling me I'm being a dumb-ass only makes me more determined.

T - Tolerant - Very much so. something I believe that is a corner-stone of my personality. I always pick myself up on illogical prejudices and thoughts that i have. There's a man I want to thank for that (he kinda brought it out in me) called Zane Foster - a very special and much missed man. Thinking of you my friend.

U - Understanding - I find it quite easy to empathize with people and think "what it be like to be in *this* situation?" obviously its impossible to understand completely without living that persons life but I have a very vivid and empathic imagination.

V - Voracious - LOVE this word hahaha I can be pretty intense sometimes - not aggressively I hope but definitely I can make my presence felt when I feel like it!

W - Wicked - in the good sense (or at least i think so) I love doing those things that make people shocked or surprised kinda ties in with me being a little mischievous.

X - Xperimental - couldn't think of an "X" but that'll do lol. Not to stay with any kind of theme - but imparticularly I love to experiment sexually. To me sex (with the right person) can be an awful lot of fun and to enjoy it to the full you should experiment as much as you can.

Y - Young at heart - life often doesn't allow you to be childish and do all the silly things that you want to do but I LOVE it when I can be like that.

Z - Zotally amazing! - yeah . . .  lol couldn't really think of one for this. But at the moment I DO like the man I am - probably for the first time this year in quite a while really.

Here are the remaining questions/answers :)
I really enjoyed this guys! Thank you for asking so many good and fun questions :D



Spanks again :D 58-72

58. Whats your favorite fast food (pizza kebab burger etc)
Pizza all the way. I LOVE pizza :X Pepperoni :P Or Calzone (when I'm back home)

59. If you could resurrect any person from any point in history who would it be and why?
Cleopatra, I think she is awesome! Always loved the history about her. Would love to ask her some things :p

60. How many pairs of shoes do you have? im guessing quite a few hahaha
Oh I have to count them! I came back with at least 4 pairs when I went to Sweden last time. So I had to throw out some old ones. But it must be more than 20 :X

61.If and when you were to get married would you a big one with lots of people or a small intimate wedding?
I'd prefer a smaller more intimate wedding, but I got loads of family :X I want to be on the beach though!

62. Whats the most expensive thing youve ever broken?
Uh oh. I am rather clutsy when it comes to things.. I think it must be one of my cameras :/
Or maybe some jewellery.


63. Lucky number?
8

64. Lights on or lights off? :p
Lights on. I want to be able to see what I'm doing :P Could go wrong otherwise haha :p

65. Do you believe in God/god/deities unnamed?
I used to believe in God. Not like a man that sits up in the heaven and makes decisions. But I believed in "something"... But then things changed in my life and I lost faith... I still believe in something.... Hard to explain.

66. How many different countries have you been to in your life?
Sweden :P haha, Bosnia (countries in former Yugoslavia), Gran Canaries, Turkey, Belgium, Germany, England, 
US of A :D Denmark, Finland and some other European countries.

67. Do you like James Bond? if so which actor do you like best as 007?
I love James Bond, and there is only one true Bond for me :) Sean Connory :P

68. Do you like incense? Burnt sticks or oils?
Yeah I don't mind it. Mainly oils, but I've thought of getting some sticks.

69. Favorite book/series?
Elizabeth Kostova- The historian. Or the Twilight series :) ♥

70. If you had to choose would you be a mechanic or a builder?
Builder :) I'd like to build things.

71.Have you ever played or wanted to play an instrument?
Not really played any instruments. Want to learn to play the guitar. Or a piano. I think they sound cool :D

72. Do you enjoy singing? Are you any good? lol
I love singing haha, especially when I'm in the shower. Or when I'm drunk and there is Karaoke... LOL.
But I have not been blessed with a song voice :X



Woot/Phil 73-80

73. What would be your choice of hairstyle,colour,length etc if you could have any?
Ooooh I always wanted to shave my hair off :X But I can't... Work would kick me out and my mum would kill me haha. But I guess I'd like to have pink hair for a day :p And long hair too. Maybe some curls.

74. Looking back over the last few years, is there anything big that was life changing that you regret/think you made the wrong decision on?
There are a few things that have happened to me in the past that I wish I'd dealt with in a different way. But I don't believe in regretting things.. I did what I did.. And I have learnt from all of my mistakes. More or less :)

75. How many people do you class as true close friends(don't need names, just a number).
I'd say 3.

76. What made you make the decision to move to the Uk?
 I've always wanted to move to England. And then I met Adam. So I decided to move.

77. Have you any future plans to move back to Sweden and settle there?
No no no. I don't want to move back to Sweden. I left it for a good reason. Life there is too difficult.
I love going back, but only on visits :)

78. Candy Question! What is you most favourite sweet? Like, if you could have a lifetime supply of it, what would you choose?
Ooooooh!! Love this question! I love a swedish candy called Djungelvral. It is salty liquorice haha :D It is sooo delicious. But I doubt you guys would like it ;)

79. What was your best subject you were good at in school?
To be honest? English! I've always been great at it :D

80. Would you want to swop your iphone for a Nokia N82? (Lol, needed something to ask for the magical question number 80!!!!)
Hahaha no I would not swap my loveli iPhone for anything :P
It is an amazing phone :D





Bulletsponge 81-90

81. what was the last parcel you got in the post and who was it from?
Got a parcel from Talan for my b-day. He sent me a card, a book about writing and some note pads :)

82. what were the last hand written letter you sent and recieved and what were they about?
Wow. Can't remember :/ Might have been a love letter or a letter to a friend or cousin. But it was years ago..

83. who would you most like to sent a parcel to right now and what would be inside it?
A friend who needs some cheering up. And I would send a teddy that he could huggle. Some candy :p and something personal.

84. what's the longest you've ever run/jogged for?
I don't like running. I hate it! But I guess a couple of km's.. I don't do miles :P

85. What's the hottest and coldest places you've ever been?
Hottest was probably Las Vegas this summer. It was about 38 degrees. And coldest was -20 in Sweden :p

86. If you spent a day again as a child, what would you like to do that you feel you couldn't as an adult?
Just go to a playground and go on the slide and build a sandcastle! hahaha. Or just dress up and sing songs all day :D

87. If you were invincible for a day, what would you do?
Hmmm. I'm not quite sure. Maybe kick evil peoples ass :P hahaha

88. what is your favourite outfit?
Think I answered this once :p

89. If you could change one thing on your favourite outfit, what would it be?
Another tricky question. I don't think I'd change anything :P

90. If you could grow a tree, any tree, what tree would you grow and why?
A plum tree :) Because we used to have those in Bosnia when I was younger. And it would remind me of that..

I wont be online all day today. So I wont have time to blog anything inbetween the Answer posts.
So I thought I'd post part 2 now :D

I'm getting ready for the wedding.
Been warming up with "I got a feeling" dancing around the flat like a mad woman haha :D

Have a wonderful day everyone!

PS. I will be updating on Twitter during the day :) That's the box on the right side of the blog :)

Here are Spanky's/Chris P's questions. 31-41 :)

31. Whats the best gig youve ever been to?
I must say Metallica :D It was an amazing experience. I love their music.
But to be completely honest my all time favourite gig was a Bosnian one :P It’s my favourite artist ever. His name is Dino Merlin and I have seen him so many times it’s untrue. Me and my best friend that lives in Switzerland now we went to his concert in Stockholm on a Friday many many years ago and then on the Saturday we got my mum to drive us to another city to see him again :D was an amazing experience. <3

32. Do you like camping? (random lol)
I’ve actually never camped in my entire life :X haha. Not sure if it is “me” :P
I would not mind trying it one day, but it would have to be like a uber cool tent with loads of cool stuff in it hahaha. I don’t like creepy crawly things :X

33. What kind of flowers do you like?
I’m such a cliché when it comes to flowers. I love roses… I absolutely adore them. (Don’t get them often tho! Haha)

34. Are there any kinds of meat you dont like/wont eat?
I don’t like pork. And not a fan of lamb.

35. Whats your favorite type of cheese?
Swedish cheese! It’s called Vastgotakloster. Haha. And it is so yummy!
You can get it in Ikea :P so if you go there you should buy one ;)

36. Whats your favorite colour?
I love pink :X I did not use to be a pink girl hehe.
But in the last few years I’ve started to love it more and more. Not on clothes!
I do like purple too. And red :X

37. Do you have any "celebrity crushes"? if so who?
No I don’t think I have :P Maybe Angelina Jolie :)

38. If you could would you prefer a cruise around the world or to view the earth from space?
Oooh tough one! Well I don’t really like boats :X Scared of them.. So I would probably go for the space one :D That would be awesome!

39. When was the first time you got really drunk?
I have no idea :O Damn.

40. What was your favorite cartoon/TV programme when you were little?
Oh I had loads! I loved Lucky Luke!
 hahaha. Don't think you guys have heard of it :P

41 If you could choose to lose either your computer or your mobile phone which would you choose?Oh nooo! Don’t say that!! Hahaha. But to be honest.. I’d probably have to say computer, because my lovely iPhone is almost as good as a computer :D

And then Dog of War :D 42-57.


42. You speak quite a few languages but is there one you would really like to learn?
Italian! I actually started learning on my own, but then I stopped :/ Should really get back on to it! I love the language :)

43. Shower or bath?
I love to shower. IF the shower pressure is high. (mine isn’t…) I could shower for hours if the pressure was better! haha

44. Favourite season?
 I love the summer. I absolutely love it.I mean the real summer :P
When it’s so warm and nice :) I also like winter :p But when it’s all white and nice outside.

45. Animal you are the most scared of?
Spiders :( Hate em!

46. Ketchup in the fridge or cupboard?
 Cupboard!

47. If you could live in any time period, which would it be?
Ooooh. Tough one!

48. Wine and cola? Seriously?
Yes seriously! It is called bambus. And it is quite nice! :) You should try it :P

49. Favourite Disney film?
 Beauty and the beast and Lion King :)

50. Do you like sauna? Why/Why not?
Not really. Because it gets so hot I can’t breathe. I panic :X

51. Pepparkakor eller Jultårta?
Pepparkakor!!! Ooooh jag langtar till Julen :P

52. If reincarnation is real and you come back as a animal, what animal would you be?
An eagle. I want to fly high above the sky. :)

53. Do you have tattoos? Would you like to get one?
Yes I have one on my wrist (picture) I want more.

54. Food you find disgusting?
Beans, I absolutely hate beans. Yukiii

55. Dogs or Cats?
I like dogs. Used to be scared of cats, but I like them now :D

56. Favourite from the Moomins/Mumintroll?
Mumintrollet!!

57. Where's my hallon båtar, you said there would be hallon båtar?
Du SKA fa dina hallon batar nar jag ar tillbaka i Sverige! :D

Here are some of the questions I got :D .
I really enjoyed these questions!
Thank you guys.
I've decided to answer them in 2 or maybe even 3 sets. So you don't get bored of reading them all :P
And it will let others ask me more questions if they like :D

The first 30 questions are from Bulletsponge :)

1. Sweet or savoury things?
Bit of both :X I love Salty liquorice haha.

2. Your favourite chocolate?
Oh my. I absolutely ♥ chocolate!! But my favourite is Rafaello.. It is the most delicious chocolate ever. Get me these and I will be so happy!


3. Your favourite ice cream?
Ben&Jerrys! Pfish food!

4. Your favourite place (in your mind or in the real world) and the one person you'd want with you there?
I love Las Vegas.. I can’t explain the feelings I have for this city. It’s amazing. And I’d take Ads with me because he appreciates it as much as me :)

5. Your favourite TF2 class?
Hmm. Used to be pyro. I love setting people on fire! :P But at the moment it’s Demoman.

6. Pepsi or coke?
Coca Cola EVERYTIME! Pepsi is yukiiiii. Not had original Coke for weeks. Being good and drinking Diet (Boooo!)

7. Fondest childhood memory(under 18)? - who were you with and what happened
This one is a tricky one. But it would be when I was in Bosnia as a child. When my late grandad took me to a restaurant in the village and he bought me a coca cola. It was in a glass bottle. And I was so happy! Haha. Why?
People could not afford coca cola back then and I just felt so privileged that my grandad took me with him :X
You'd understand better if you knew more about him.. :)

8. Fondest adult memory (18 or over)? - who were you with and what happened
Very hard to choose one. But I guess this summer when I went to Universal studios and Disneyland with Ads. I felt like a big child again :D Alot of my dreams came true this summer :)


9. Your favourite vegetable?
I’m not a vegetable person. Don’t like it at all. But I’d say carrot! I do like to nibble on a raw carrot stick. Don’t like cooked/fried vegetable.. I pick it out of food and annoy everyone hahaha.

10. If you could swap bodies with anyone for a day, having their skills and memories - in effect being a puppeteer for them, who would you swap with and what would you do if your actions had no impact the day after?
I would be someone famous like maybe Pink and write an awesome song and sing till I can’t talk! I’d love to be able to sing :X  Or an artist and draw something breathtakingly beautiful… I can’t even draw a straight line… lol

11. What do you like most about your significant other?
The fact that he always wants to make me happy. He cares about me alot and does not want me to be unhappy.

12. If you could stop an event in history from occuring or change the outcome, what would it be and why?
Difficult... You can't change anything unfortunately.. But I would have tried to stop the war in former Yugoslavia..

13. What's your favourite kind of cake and why? Cheesecake from Cheesecake factory (Us of A). The cheesecake there is heavenly delicious. It just melts in your mouth. Some of the cheesecakes are MASSIVE.
 The original is my favourite. It is absolutely d.e.l.i.c.i.o.u.s!

14. What's your favourite outfit and why?
Tough one! I love wearing jeans because I feel comfortable in them. But I also love wearing a loveli dress and high heels :) Because it makes me feel very feminine :X

15. What's your favourite pair of shoes and why?
I got a pair of black gladiators that I love. They are really high heeled. I’m quite tall as it is, but they make me even taller. I just feel so sexy when I wear them :X They make my legs look long! Haha. And they’re rather comfy for being high heeled.

16. If you could have 1 super power, what would it be?
 I’d love to be able to fly lol.
Not really a superpower that could be useful for the world. Guess it's quite selfish of me? haha

17. If you were stuck on a desert island, what's the 1 item you'd take with you?
Ah I hate this question hahaha! I’d say my laptop, but I’d need a charger for it!
So I have to say my favourite book, The historian by Elizabeth Kostova.

18. Can you think of a loved one you'd give up your health to save?
My mum.

19. What are your top 3 tv shows (in order)?
Top 3??!! Only 3?!!Aaaah I got millions!!
Ok ok..
1.Greys Anatomy.
2. Vampire Diaries.
3. One tree hill

20. What's your favourite fairy tale?
Ooooh. I do love Cinderella :X It’s such a beautiful story with a happy ending!
I like happy endings :X
Thumbelina is another lovely fairytale :)

21. How many kids do you want in the future? How many boys/girls, thought of any names you'd like?
I’d like 1 of each. A boy and a girl.
I love the names Edin and Luca for boys (but they’re foreign lol so they are not too popular.. I like them tho!)
I also like Nathaniel. For girls I like Rose and Lily.

22. What do you love most about your family?
I love my mum even tho we don't get along most times. She is a strong woman and I have always envyed that in her. And I guess I've learnt alot from her.

23. If you could have any extra body part, what would it be and why? This body part can be situated in an out of the ordinary place.
Wings! So I could fly!

24. If you could eat/drink one thing without it having an effect on your health, what would it be and why?
Kripsy Kreme donuts! Because they are d.e.l.i.c.i.o.u.s!!! haha :D Or coca cola... :P

25. If you could put anyone in a catapult and fling them into a lake, who would it be and why? Hmmmm good question. Some people in the office I work in haha. Because they are selfish/greedy/negative people.. Oh and dude2010 on the server haha :P Because he annoys me soooo much I’m thinking of giving up TF2!

26. What's your favourite magazine?
I love LOOK magazine. It’s a girly one. They have lots of fashion stuff in it. I don’t like gossip ones. They are all made up!

27. What item is most valuable to you and why?
My phone lol. I love to stay in contact with all you guys!! :D

28. What is the strangest food you've ever tasted?
Sushi! Ewwwwww. So not my thing :X I only tried a piece of salmon and then I threw it out because it was all slimey. Eww! My friends were laughing at me :/

29. What is the strangest drink you've ever tasted?
Difficult one. I had a crazy drink called Jack-off during the summer. Can’t remember what was in it at the moment haha. But it was not the best mix! :P

30. would you rather bungee jump or sky dive?
Sky dive! It is something I want to do in the future! :D

The rest of the questions will be posted in the next following days :)
Hope you enjoy my answers as much as I enjoyed your questions.
Thank you all once again :D

Wow I got so many good questions from you guys! :D
I'm impressed! Really happy that you guys want to know so much about me ;) hehehe.

I am replying to them all. I am not quite sure how to do it though.

Shall I do one post with all of your questions? Or do them 20-30 at a time?
Don't want to bore you guys to death! Hahaha

Just wanted to let you know that I appreciate your effort.
And I want more! From all of my readers ;)

I think I might do some of the answers today and then continue tomorrow :)
So keep them coming!

Huggles

Ask me anything you'd like to know about me. :)
Not sure if this is going to be an interesting thing for you guys :P

But I hope you ask me loads of questions so I can answer them for you in a post.

Do it! :D Please :X

Every day I come to the office I have to listen to Radio1 in the morning.
Usually till 10am, but sometimes even longer than that.
I don't like Radio1. They play the same music over and over again. Gets really boring.

I myself prefer listening to XFM. And there is one other person that likes it too in the office.
The rest of them are Radio1 lovers or Heart, Smooth (HELP!!!) or even Galaxy.

I just want to listen to music that makes me feel good :)
Not often that I get to listen to my radio station, but this morning it was just me and another
person in, he who also likes XFM so we put it on :D loud! hahaha

What radio station do you listen to? :)

 <------ That's the radio we got in the office!!

Decided to have a blonde moment post now and again.
Depending on how many times I actually have one haha.
Happens quite often :X
So you can laugh at me ;)

This morning I had a revelation.

I was so tired all day yesterday and I could not understand why.
I usually have 1 cup of coffee each day, usually a cappuccino.
Yesterday I even had one at 5pm which should under normal circumstances have kept me awake all night haha. But I went to sleep around 11.30pm and I feel asleep instantly.
This morning I was thinking how could that be?

I got my coffee out and there it was. The answer was staring at me.
Decaffeinated it said on the package. Hahaha I was laughing at my own stupidity.
I had accidentally bought the decaffeinated cappuccino.

DOH!

Thought I’d share this with you guys :P

 Can I have one of these please? :P

I’m going to try and be positive..

Take one day at a time.

Not stress over things that I can’t control.

Breathe.

When everything feels like it's too much, I have to stop and breathe.

Let go of the panic that is creeping up on me.

I answered these questions ages ago. Sometime in 2007 when I was still living in Sweden.
And it was one of my first posts on the blog. I wrote in Swedish then.
Demiguise reminded me of the list so I thought I’d remake the list and in English this time.
Quite funny to see that some things have changed :P

Often on the plate: Chicken
How I know I’m in love: I get butterflies and my heart beats faster.
This is what I do when I’m sad: Listen to sad songs and cry haha.
Things I love to give away: Huggles!!
Dessert: Cheesecake or something with chocolate.
Todays lie: Someone asked me “how are you?” and I said “I’m ok”.
My room is: Messy! Needs tidying..
What did you eat last: Some Swedish crackers.
Who did you get an e-mail from last: Daidai :)
Last bustrip: Can’t remember. Ages ago. Don’t like busses. Prefer walking.
Do you sleep naked: Always
What do you do when you can’t sleep: I do some breathing exercise a friend told me about.. And I think about a clear sky where I can see all the millions stars.

When you’re older, do you live in the city or countryside: Hopefully countryside. Hate the city.

How many days a week do you go out partying: Not often enough anymore :/
Should Stockholm be Swedens capital city: Yeah? Why not.
What do you think of Facebook: It’s over rated, but fun to keep in contact with people you’ve “forgotten”.

Favourite movie: Casino, Scarface and many, many more.
Who makes you feel bad: Selfish people..

Do you complain at people who can’t write grammatically right: Just hate “text talk”..

Are you an intellectual genius: hahaha I wish :P
Are you the one to finish a phone conversation: No, I could talk forever.
What are you doing in 10 years time: Hopefully I’ll be living in US of A.

What type of cookies do you like? I’m not a cookie lover.
What do you prefer to eat for dinner? Pizza (for breakfast,lunch and dinner if it was healthy!! hehe)
Why are you not a vegan? Because I like meat…
Whats your pets name? Don’t have one. Want a dog and a fluffy cat called Garfield!!

What are you wearing right now? Boring office wear. Black trousers and a black top.
What hairstyle? Japanese boy. (a bob that I’m trying to grow now)
How many hours do you usually sleep? 6-8
What do you prefer to drink with your food? Coca cola when I’m not on a diet.. Mainly Diet coke atm.
What do you drink when you go out? Long island ice tea, Mojito, JD&coke
What did you eat for breakfast? Some Swedish crackers.
Who did you make out with last? Errrr. I don’t make out! lol
Who do you miss? Someone…
Do you make a fool of yourself when drunk? Happens. Quite often haha.
Do you keep a diary? Used to, not anymore.
What did you break last? I’d say a pen, Ads would say my lovely digi camera :(
Have you been threatened on phone? Yeah
What did you buy last? Can’t remember. Probably food :/
Who did you hug last? Bf
What are you addicted to? Tf2… haha and all my (100) shows.
Are you sexually frustrated? Errr yeah…!

Being back in reality sucks.


I know it’s not easy for anyone out there to understand what I’m going through at the moment.
It’s not even easy for me to get my head around this.


Went back to work on Monday.. Clearly not ready for it..
But had to.. I hate feeling helpless and like I’m not doing well enough.

Another thing that gets to me is when people ask me “How are you?”.
Makes me want to scream.

People in work don’t know why I was off. And I don’t want to tell them.
Just gets to me when people say “cheer up”, “it’s not that bad”..
If they only knew…


I feel like giving up.. But I can’t.. I can’t let people down..
I can’t afford giving up. I need this job to pay for bills, food etc.

Can’t talk to anyone about this.. They won’t understand.
I just want to be “normal” again. I want to be happy again.
Don’t want to feel like the world is collapsing around me.

I’m fighting the urge to just lay down and cry.
I am trying to be strong. For me..

Just wish people understood..

I have a decision to make,
I hate making decisions. I’m the most indecisive person ever.
Trust me.
This time it is regarding the lovely watch I got for my b-day.

I went to get it shortened during the weekend, but they told me that the clasp is too lose
and I should have it sent back and have a new one.
Problem is that the watch I got has gone out of stock and they’re not sure when it will be back in.
However, I could choose a different one.
That’s where the decision making comes in.

I know it might seem like a silly thing to some people, but I’m silly! :/

I really love the watch I got. But one of the watches that I could choose instead is pretty cool and very “me”. Silver and bling :p

Here is a pic of the "replacement" watch.
 
(click to see it larger)

Here is a picture of the one I got.



What do *you* think?

 *Update*

I've decided to go for the silver one.
I love both watches, but I think the silver one is a bit more "me" than the pink/gold one.
Ads does not mind :) He said I should choose the one I want.