But I like answering them :P So here it goes. More random info about me!
Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?
This is really peculiar, because I have loads of them, but the weirdest one is on my head. Under my hair.. My mum and brother have them too! Must be genetic?? Haha
Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms?
Hahahaha. Yes I do.. I don't trust public toilets. EWWW!
What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
We were in Germany visiting family. Think it was 1998. We had stayed out longer than we were supposed to (allowed) and they grounded us. It was my last day/night there and I was gutted.. So we sneaked out through the window at night when everyone went to bed.. That is a story I have to tell one day. It's hillarious :P
Have you ever had two dates in one night?
Haha :$ Yes! It just happened. Was not planned. This was when I was young and single. Don't recommend it! Too stressful!!
Which shoe do you put on first?
Right one... Hmmm..
Have you ever been to a gay bar?
Yes, loads of times! Some of my best nights out have been in a gay bar/club. You have so much more fun and you can let go without having to worry about creeps trying to hit on you..
Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you?
A poem - Supposedly
If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash?
That's gross!! But I could not live without clean bed sheets.. I'd just use it as a bath towel :P Or is that cheating?? ^^
1.How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
I would be 20 as I look younger :p and sometimes can feel/be very childish and immature :$
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Never trying of course. It might sound like a cliché, but it's true. If you don't try you will
always think "what if"?
3.If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? This is a very good question. I think people are scared of doing what they want as they think
it would be irresponsible. Most of all I think people are scared to try.. They get used to doing the
"safe" thing day in and day out. Go to a job they can't stand and always feel bad about. Why? Because they think it's the "right" thing to do. It's comfortable. It's what they're used to.. More people should do what they want instead of saying. "If this, or if that"..
Just DO it!
4.When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I would have done as much as I've said. I will make sure of that! I do try and live out my dreams.
As much as I possibly can :)
5.What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
One thing.. I would like to change so much.. But if only one..
I blogged quite a lot when I started with the IVF. It was a while ago.
Feels like an eternity. When the first go failed I was quite upset, but I
somehow knew it wouldn't work then. I just didnt expect it. We had so much going
on back then and I guess it was a stressful time.
They always say don't stress, it's not good for you.. Easier said than done!!
So when we had our 2nd go and it was a frozen embryo transfer, I didn't tell anyone.
Not even my mum or Ads' mum. We were the only ones who knew.
I took the needles again as advised and some tablets each day for weeks..
The needles are the worst :( They still get to me..
It hurts a lot at times, but then some times I can barely feel it..
But it's not the pain that bothers me.. It's the idea of me doing this weird thing to myself.
Just doesn't feel right. Hard to explain..
No one can understand what I'm going through at the moment.
(Apart from other women that are going through IVF or have done in the past)
I hate when people say "It'll happen when you least expect it".. NO IT BLOODY WON'T!!
I know people try to be nice and understanding, but they have no idea so I rather not hear it
at all..
Anyways..
We had 2 frozen eggs put in last year in Dec and they told us to take a pregnancy test
on the 23rd. 1 day before X-mas eve and 2 days before X-mas day.. I so wanted to tell my mum she would finally become a grandmother. Finally be able to tell family and friends that it's our turn now..
I woke up early that morning. I was so nervous. I had one of them new digital
tests.. Did what I needed and me and Ads sat there in the bedroom waiting to see if it would
say "Pregnant" or "Not pregnant".. And 2-3 minutes later there it was...
"NOT PREGNANT"... Something died in me at that moment... I started crying so much
and Ads held me in his arms and tried to comfort me. I felt like such a failure..
I know it's not my fault and it's all luck I guess if it happens through IVF.
I don't know, but at that minute I felt like nothing. Empty. Broken. Sad.
Told my mum and she said there's nothing we can do and that we will just have to
try again and that made me feel a bit better.
So we are now on our 3rd go. I will keep you posted. I will not give up.
We will have our baby one day. We both have hope and each other :)
I'm wanting to start over with my blog this year. Make it what it used to be. Alive!
I know I've been quiet the last 2 years and I don't even know why. Well, the biggest reason is that I work in a place where I haven't got access to Internet to be able to update as much as I used to in the past.
Only have access to it during the lunch hour and I want to eat then! :P
When I get home I'm too tired to sit infront of a PC or laptop.
I do miss blogging they way I used to. And I think I need to make some type of arrangement where I at least blog once a week. I could do that and then take it from there.
So this week I will be blogging about the last few months.
IVF.. X-mas and New Years - When my mum came to visit us for the first time since I moved to England :)
Hope you're all still going to keep checking in. I do apologise for being so rubbish!!